"Beginning" – 5/15/20

Since this all began
There is never a time when I'm not hungry
I gather food around me to encourage trust
Not to give up when inevitable fears of the future overcome
 
Since this all began
There is never a time when I don't miss proof
I gather evidence around me to discourage hope
From wondering if waiting for its outcome can ever be enough
 
Since this all began
I marvel at the resourcefulness of reflection
The swaying of trees supplanting of freedoms
Change in all forms as turmoil's testimony overwhelms
 
Since this all began
We've barely begun getting to know one another
Praying for more memories to come to light I imitate
Shabbat candles resolving to be more present but it's turbid
 
Since this all began
It takes more energy than ever to control
My appetites my organization my attention span
Hot and cold like the seasons surrendering soul quanta